Dreams, Inspiration, Lifestyle

You can be vulnerable & strong at the same time

A couple of people have told me I’m gullible.

Eh, kind of. At first, I was like *surprised Pikachu face*, but I look at it a different way.

I just trust people. I trust what people say is true, and that they mean what they say. I trust someone until they give me a reason not to.

Over the last few years, I’ve truly seen how people lie. White lies, sure, everyone tells those. But I learned that sometimes people really, really lie. They do shady things. They betray you. They blindside you. And, side note, my consumption of true crime doesn’t help me in thinking that people are honest.

I’m not saying I’m perfect. Far from it. But here’s where I’m going with this: just because people have lied to me or made me feel gullible doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trusting people.

I used to believe you could either be dumb and trusting and gullible, or cold and tough and cynical. And, hey, after experiencing the not-so-pretty parts of people, I considered being the latter. But I recently spoke with a woman whom I really look up to, and she told me that yes, you can be sensitive and kind while also being strong and not letting people walk all over you.

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Dreams, Inspiration, Lifestyle, Writing

My journey into freelance writing & making dreams come true

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Hi there! It has been a really, really, really long time since I’ve blogged. That’s because life has been absolutely hectic and chaotic and a lovely mess of dreams coming true. And the reason for that is some hard work happening behind the scenes.

Back in March, I experienced a setback that crushed me. It was something I’d built up in my mind, something I was sure I would get. It was huge. And when I received news that it had just slipped from my grasp, I was crushed. I even left work early because mentally I felt so defeated. I cried the entire thirty minutes home, repeating over and over again: “I thought I had it.”

My gut said yes. My gut said big things were happening, and this was it. So when reality hit that wasn’t the case, I felt so incredibly low. I felt like I couldn’t trust even my own intuition anymore, because I always found my gut to be right – about people, about choices I had to make, and even about what song would come next on shuffle. Well, that last one wasn’t always 100% accurate.

I allowed myself to feel defeat and sadness and discouragement. I wasn’t going to suppress those emotions, because what had happened was truly disappointing and I had to deal with how I was feeling. But once I woke up the next morning, I had a thought.

“I’m going to be a freelance writer.”

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