Hi there! It has been a really, really, really long time since I’ve blogged. That’s because life has been absolutely hectic and chaotic and a lovely mess of dreams coming true. And the reason for that is some hard work happening behind the scenes.
Back in March, I experienced a setback that crushed me. It was something I’d built up in my mind, something I was sure I would get. It was huge. And when I received news that it had just slipped from my grasp, I was crushed. I even left work early because mentally I felt so defeated. I cried the entire thirty minutes home, repeating over and over again: “I thought I had it.”
My gut said yes. My gut said big things were happening, and this was it. So when reality hit that wasn’t the case, I felt so incredibly low. I felt like I couldn’t trust even my own intuition anymore, because I always found my gut to be right – about people, about choices I had to make, and even about what song would come next on shuffle. Well, that last one wasn’t always 100% accurate.
I allowed myself to feel defeat and sadness and discouragement. I wasn’t going to suppress those emotions, because what had happened was truly disappointing and I had to deal with how I was feeling. But once I woke up the next morning, I had a thought.
“I’m going to be a freelance writer.”
I had been toying with this idea for years. I wanted a way to further hone my writing skills and also build something of my own. I have my fiction writing, yes, but I wanted something that would materialize more quickly. I wanted to do any and all kinds of writing – whether it was blog posts, podcast notes, resumes, or website copy.
So, that next day, I set a goal: I would begin freelance writing on April 1 and would manifest two projects in that first month. That’s all I set out to do. Two writing projects in the first month.
I’m happy to say I had four projects in that first month, and it’s only been growing since then. I still work full time in PR and love it, but this really gives me a chance to strengthen my skills even more.
My point in writing this is that good – actually, freaking great – things can come from bitter disappointments and let-downs. If I can offer some unsolicited advice (hypocritical, because I hate when people give me unsolicited advice), take those hard times and grow. And no matter what, chase your dreams. Put the hard work in, and I promise it will be worth it.
And, I could write a whole different post on this, do not let anyone try to talk down your dreams or make you feel like you can’t do it. Chances are, they’re projecting their own feelings of self doubt on you. And you don’t need that. Show them the door.
Thanks so much for reading, and I’m hoping to make this a regular thing once again. I’m really on about happiness, inspiration, and growth lately, so you might see more of that.